Being ok with the uncomfortable!

Starting a new chapter in life...Being over 50 recently divorced from a sexless marriage. Starting over on my own, discovering the real me! Going through alcohol abuse, dating sites, finding love, getting comfortable with my body, mind and soul! Learning to open up and have fun with a partner. Lots of fun stories to share! oh and then wamo! Partner gets cancer! Learning a lot of things Doctors don't tell you like food...Cancer loves sugar. Created new ways to eat and know how to navigate through labels of food while making it fun...Don't get me wrong there have been tears and frustration as well. I am grateful for all the things and tips I have learned through my own research and research of others that I have studied and would love to help and share my experiences.

Born too military parents in Washington state and grew up in Hawaii. Parents divorced some time around age 6 but I don't remember much about it at all dad remarried his nurse he was a doctor had multiple affairs my mom raised four crazy kids on her own. I lived in Hawaii till my early 20s then moved to the mainland with my boyfriend at the time to Washington state and started my finance career, we soon  married and moved a few times to Florida and back to Hawaii then to Florida then Texas and back to Florida they're a lot changed. I was unhappy and in a sexless marriage and I knew I had to make a change. I could not see myself retired and living out my life like this…I wanted to be like the happy couples in movies and on Facebook so I started divorce proceedings after a 23 year marriage, turned 50 fell into a blind stupid love packed up to move back to Hawaii. Boxes packed and here comes a hurricane making a beeline straight for me! I  managed to make it through that and set off back to Hawaii. Five years later still being in Hawaii with so many trials and tribulations to share so where do I begin? This will be fun and crazy and scary at the same time! I have so much to share there were times I felt alone and was afraid to be “ME” for fear of judgment or being different. I have had a burning desire to share what I know in hopes of helping even just one person along the way and maybe help someone breathe a little easier laugh cry or just know they're not alone!

A few of the highlights:

Surviving a wild crazy partying childhood

alcohol abuse then sober 17 years

Started drinking again at age 49

Divorced

Being a semi virgin for 20 years

Dating app stories oh how so many of dating app stories

The wild crazy fun sex after 50 and during menopause yes that's right!

Living and starting our on my own

Spouse taking me to the cleaners with my divorce

Staying healthy and fit

Working for five years to sober up again

Finding love joy laughter my own voice

Learning there is such a thing as a silent narcissist

Becoming a cancer caregiver to a man I love

Learning tricks and how to stay positive most of the time lol

Learning about foods and diets and how sugar is such a killer especially for cancer of any kind and alcohol kills both of which are huge money makers